Mother Invites Pedophile Boyfriend to Rape Her Four Month-Old Baby Girl

I don’t have much hope for the human race anymore. But I do hope these two get the death penalty; yes the mother included. I say this from a very centered place. I do not feel emotional about this article. I am doing the most profound healing of my life lately, and although disturbing, this story did not affect me in a physical or emotional way like it would have a week ago.

I am alive and breathing, so of course it affects my soul in the way it would affect any human with compassion, but looking at this story objectively, I see that humanity has devolved so much so, that I don’t think there is much hope for our future as the “human” race…

“A Missouri mother has been charged with child abuse and murder after police said she let her boyfriend rape her 4-month-old infant, resulting in the child’s death.

Prosecutors in St. Charles County on Monday released details about how 25-year-old Jessica Lynn Howell sent text messages to her boyfriend, Jordan Lafayette Prince, indicating that she was willing to let him have sex with her daughter even though she knew he had previously been convicted for sexual abuse of a minor.”

What difference does it make if she knew he was a sexual predator or not? The article reads that she was willing to let him have sex with her infant child.

“In those text messages, she suggested and encouraged some unspeakable things,” St. Charles Prosecuting Attorney Tim Lohmar told KTVI. “It is very, very disturbing.”

Lohmar said that Prince sexually assaulted the infant and then strangled her to death.

Ashlynn was sexually assaulted causing multiple tears to her anus, a massive laceration to her rectum with massive hematoma in the area of the pelvis,” the probable cause document states. “The injuries to her anus and rectum of Ashlynn were sufficient to eventually cause her death even without the strangulation.”

Howell was being held on $1 million bond and was schedule to be arraigned on Tuesday. Prince remains in jail awaiting trial for first-degree murder charges.

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Father Kills Newborn Son, Gets out of Prison, Assaults Newborn Daughter

“A man released from prison two years ago after abusing his newborn boy who later died has now been charged with abusing his newborn daughter.

David Curtis Patton, 32, was arrested on May 29 and charged with felony child abuse, accused of “causing or permitting serious injury to the life or health” of a child “by a willful act, omission or refusal to provide necessary care.”

He faces between two and 10 years in prison if convicted.”

So he can get out in two years to procreate another victim, or marry a woman with kids, who is looking for a man and willing to hook up with anyone at all………so he can then kill or assault another child.

“The baby girl is in stable condition, Hampton police spokeswoman Cpl. Mary Shackelford said on Wednesday. But the extent of the baby’s brain injuries, and her prognosis in recovering from them, wasn’t clear from the arrest records.

On June 7, Patton, who works in construction, was denied bond by Juvenile and Domestic Relations Judge Deborah Roe, and is being held at the Hampton City Jail. He faces a preliminary hearing on July 2.

Patton’s attorney, Assistant Hampton Public Defender Nanita Cornish, declined to comment on the case this week. Patton also declined an interview request made through the Hampton Sheriff’s Office.

Past incident

The Hampton incident comes nearly seven years after October 2006 case of Jared Nicholas Patton, who was born healthy but was injured in James City County while in the care of his father, David Patton, three weeks later.

Doctors determined the boy suffered from bleeding in his brain, bruises and other injuries consistent with shaken baby syndrome or blunt force trauma, or both.

In October 2007 — two years before Jared succumbed to his injuries — David Patton was convicted in Williamsburg-James City County Circuit Court of felony child abuse. He was sentenced to seven years, with five to serve and two suspended.

Jared’s fight to overcome obstacles was featured in several stories in the Daily Press. Though he could move his arms and legs, he could not walk or grasp a toy. His grandparents said he taught many people about unconditional love.

After more than three years of fighting for his life, Jared died in November 2009. State medical examiners determined he died of the results of “inflicted brain injury.”

Patton, who was not charged with any additional crimes after Jared died, was released from prison in August 2011.

Earlier this year, a girlfriend whom David Patton met after his release from prison gave birth to the couple’s new baby daughter, Jared’s grandparents said this week.”

The mother ought to be charged with child endangerment and reckless stupidity for having sex with this man.

“At 5:30 p.m. on May 28, according to court documents, Hampton police received a call from Children’s Hospital of the King’s Daughters, saying that the baby was receiving treatment at the Norfolk hospital for “acute and chronic subdural hematomas on the brain” — essentially, severe bruising on the brain.

A criminal complaint filed with an arrest warrant in Hampton Juvenile and Domestic Relations District Court said that Patton, now 32, was at his home on Morgan Drive, off Woodland Road, on May 22 with the baby and a 120-pound dog.

“The accused advised that he stepped outside to smoke and left the 3-month-old in a bouncer,” said the complaint, filed by Hampton Police Detective John Baer. “The (dog) was on the couch. The accused advised that the K-9 alerted to something outside and jumped off the couch, landing and flipping the 3-month-old in the bouncer.”

But according to Baer’s complaint, police aren’t buying that story: “The treating medical personnel at CHKD indicate that the series of events told by the accused is inconsistent with the injuries that the 3-month-old is suffering,” the complaint said.

It was not clear from the court record how the injuries were inconsistent or how soon after the May 22 incident that the infant was taken to the hospital.

‘Another chance’

In an interview this week, Kathy Stowe, Jared’s maternal grandmother, said that after the new baby girl was born, her husband, Steve Stowe, decided to let go of his pent up emotions.

“It had been on me like a 50-pound weight for six years,” Steve Stowe explained Thursday. “I had to let it go and kind of move on. … It’s a terrible feeling to be hating someone all the time. You get up hating them, and go to bed hating them …. It’s a hell of a way to live.”

So in March, just weeks after the new baby was born, Steve Stowe went to David Patton’s home and left him a picture of newborn Jared in 2006, being held by his then-2-year-old brother. He also left one of Jared’s blue-and-pink blankets.

Though Patton wasn’t home at the time, he called Stowe the next day.

“I said, ‘I forgive you for what you did or didn’t do,’” Stowe said. “I said, ‘I’m not trying to judge you, I’m just trying to live my life.’”

According to Stowe, Patton replied: “That’s what I’m trying to do, and thank you for taking care of Jared the way you did.”

Stowe said he then replied: “Take care of your baby girl. You got another chance.”

Forgiveness does not mean to bless another victim to be abused or killed by wishing the perpetrator all the best, and by giving them a “another chance” to kill again with good wishes to the killer.

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Father Molests Three Year-Old Daughter While Wife Holds Child’s Hand ‘To Ease Her Pain’

My first reaction was a desire to see both parents put to death. My mother was there when I was raped by my father, and I still struggle with that. It is easier for me to admit and come to terms with the fact that my mother sexually abused me, than for me to allow myself to admit that she was there when I was raped.

I know intellectually that I forgive my mother, but my inner child has not yet truly released her anger over this. My initial desire to see these two put to death, came from my subconscious mind (where the inner child still lives and breathes.) Whenever we have an intensely, and out of character, strong reaction to something, it usually means we are reacting from unhealed emotions.

But I began to cry when I read that this little girl was so sexualized that she was dry humping her stuffed animals and wanted to watch porn. This hit me harder because I was so sexualized by my father that I masturbated excessively and wanted more sexual abuse from him.

For a survivor of child sexual abuse, being angry and disgusted at those who harm children is not as emotionally painful as being angry and disgusted at one’s self for having ‘gotten into’ the sexual abuse, craving it, and being unhappy when it ends. I have worked long and hard healing this aspect of the incest. I am not there yet, but close. It takes a very long time and a lot of willingness to see ugly truths about ourselves in order to fully and truly heal those truths…

“A 27-year-old man sexually assaulted his three-year-old daughter ‘too many times to remember’, during which time his wife would hold the toddler’s hand so that it ‘wouldn’t hurt so much’, court documents reveal.

The Michigan man, who is not being named to protect his daughter, has been arraigned on 12 counts of first degree sexual misconduct after it emerged he repeatedly raped the three-year-old, took illicit photographs of her for his own ‘sexual gratification’ and made her watch child porn.

The man admitted to Blackman-Leoni Township public safety detectives Joseph Merritt and Christopher Boulter that he may have attempted to have sex with his daughter six times but that in reality it occurred ‘too many times to remember’.

His wife also admitted assisting her husband while he attempted to penetrate their daughter more than once, holding her hands ‘so it wouldn’t hurt so much’ while he held her legs if she ‘tried to get away’, according to documents.

The graphic details were revealed in a petition filed by the Department of Human Services, which is seeking to terminate his and his wife’s parental rights.

They were living at the Avalon Hotel, 2000 Bondsteel Drive.

The abuse is believed to have begun late last year and continued until May, MLivereports.

It came to the attention of Children’s Protective Services on May 7 when they received a complaint that the toddler was displaying ‘sexualized behavior’ such as ‘humping her stuffed animals’ and asking her brother for sex. She also found a pornography DVD and tried to watch it.

The wife claims her husband would force sex on her and she would physically shake in his presence, according to MLive.

He grabbed her throat once when she tried to stop him physically abuse her sons when they were two and four-years-old and told her if she called police he would throw her out the window.

The man told detectives he is a ‘sex addict’ and has gambling problems. He also said he was sexually abused as a child, as did his wife.

The couple would watch porn and have sex in front of the children.

The toddler’s father wrote her an apology letter, which the petition quotes.

‘If you’re reading this, I am either dead or in jail. I am not proud of being here.

‘I also was touched as a child and repressed its memory as long as I could. When we moved, that nightmare came back and haunted me and I unfairly took it out on you.

‘I am sorry for what I have done and hope that you have a happy life wherever you end up.’

He also wrote: ‘I know you are going to have a lot of questions as to why this happened and I can’t tell you that at this time, I am not fully sure as to why this happened.

‘Please know that I want the best for you and I am going to get the help I need. My head is not right and hasn’t been for a long time.’

The mother has not been charged with any crime as yet but the investigation is continuing”~The Daily Mail

My notes: If the mother was sexually abused as a child. She is a hypocrite for allowing her daughter to be sexually abused and for being there when it happened.

The mother tried to stop her sons from being abused, but not her daughter? This is telling.

I don’t care what happened to her as a child, she watched pornography and had sex in front of the child, and most likely got off on it. She wasn’t forced into anything by this man. She is no victim and needs to be charged with child rape.

I have written an email to the city attorney. If you feel strongly about this case, and want to take action to help stop child sexual abuse, please write the attorney and ask them to prosecute the mother.

Here is my letter. Feel free to use some of my words, in your own style:

I am writing in reference to the case of the 27-year-old man who has been charged with sexually assaulting his three-year-old daughter, during which time his wife would hold the toddler’s hand so that it “wouldn’t hurt so much.”

The Michigan man’s name is being withheld by the press, but you must know who I am speaking of.

My mother held me down while I was being raped by my father as a young child, and willfully allowed the incest to continue for years.

This is a crime against nature and a crime against that child’s soul. I don’t care if the mother in this Michigan case was sexually abused as a child. She is a hypocrite, and should be held even more accountable because she knows the emotional trauma and severe pain that child sexual abuse causes, yet she facilitated the sexual abuse of her own child.

This mother watched pornography and had sex in front of the child, and most likely got off on it. She wasn’t forced into anything by this man. She is no victim and needs to be charged with child rape, child abuse, child endangerment, child abandonment, and reckless indifference.

Charging and prosecuting these kind of women is the only way to help stop these crimes. If you do not charge this woman, you are essentially approving of what she did. If you do not hold her criminally accountable, you are giving the green light to other women in similar situations (and there are countless cases like this) to be silent about incest and abuse, to willfully allow it to happen, help it to happen, and for some women…you give them the okay to take part in the sexual abuse of the child.

Sincerely,
Alethea XXXXX

Update: Here is the proper contact information for the attorney in the case.

Jackson County Prosecutor

County of Jackson

312 S. Jackson Street

Jackson, MI 49201

517.788.4283

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Zip it Shut

A reader has asked that I post this video. She is looking for feedback. I am posting it without a preface.

Please comment with your first reaction, and any thoughts you have about it. She is looking for honesty and opinions. Thanks so much.

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How the ‘Gay’ Child Sex Abuse Cover-Up Kills Young Men

By Dr. Judith Reisman ~

“The battle for “gay” marriage clings for life to a “born that way” mythology fathered by the psychopathic Al Kinsey’s claims that we are 10 percent to 37 percent homosexual. (See my law review article, “Crafting Bi/Homosexual Youth.”)

While a “gay gene” lay undiscovered in hopeful cadavers, tears, handedness and such, “gay” child sex abuse has a long cross cultural etiology of precipitating non-normative identity.

In fact, an analysis of the groundbreaking 1983 book, “One Teenager in Ten: Writings by Gay And Lesbian Youth,” finds 38 percent of these teens reporting personal “gay” child sex abuse. The vulnerable youngsters were counseled that their abuse was their own fault, for they were really “born that way.”

By July 2000, “Sexual Assault of Young Children as Reported to Law Enforcement – Victim, Incident, and Offender Characteristics, A NIBRS Statistical Report” found massive increases in child sexual abuse. Moreover, “14 percent of sex assault victims reported to law enforcement agencies were under age 6.”

Males were 15 percent of the juvenile victims of sexual assault with an object, 20 percent of the juvenile victims of forcible fondling and 59 percent of the juvenile victims of forcible sodomy. For victims under age 12, the male proportions were even greater: sexual assault with an object (19 percent), forcible fondling (26 percent) and forcible sodomy (64 percent).

Forcible sodomy 64 percent! Like the Stockholm syndrome, child victims are quickly convinced they “wanted” their sexual abuse – it was their fault. Why? Because they are allegedly “gay” or “bi” or “trans” or “queer” or … But where are the mass arrests of the AIDS-infected men whose “forcible sodomy” of boys results in thousands of untimely male “gay” deaths?

Since modern brain research confirms that environment shapes the human brain, especially before age 21, it is not surprising that children’s sexual mis-orientations are increasing. Historic, cross-cultural, literary and scientific data obstinately identify myriad cultural markers that trigger temporary and/or permanent same-sex arousal. Even the left-leaning CDC 2001-2009 “Survey on Sexual Identity” cannot hide the fact that early sex trauma is commonly causal in adult and juvenile sexual mis-orientations.

My notes: Gay and lesbianism is promoted, encouraged, normalized, and shoved onto the minds of little children every day in schools, on television, and by a society that has lost its moral way, and instead, has embraced the idea of ‘everything is love,’ ‘live and let live,’ ‘everything is normal,’ ‘don’t judge,’ ‘children can make their own decisions…maybe they are gay; they should be able to explore, so give them other options,’ ‘it’s natural, animals do it.’

The CDC authors mislead the public by euphemizing “first sexual intercourse before age 13″ as a variation of “coming of age” versus rape and statutory rape. The authors use the word “harassed” only once, in reporting that mis-oriented youths were “verbally harassed.” (p. 47).

It turns out that early sex crimes are statistically higher among all sexually mis-oriented youth – homosexual, bisexual and what the movement had called “questioning” but which the CDC study defines as “not sure” – than among heterosexual youth. The following high school student data reported 12 months before the CDC survey are briefly, statistically rounded up:

“[F]irst sexual intercourse before age 13 years”: 5 percent heterosexual, 20 percent gay or lesbian, 15 percent bisexual, and 13 percent not sure. (Discussed further below)

“Dating violence”: 10 percent heterosexual, 28 percent gay or lesbian, 23 percent bisexual, and 19 percent not sure.

“Physically forced to have sexual intercourse”: 7 percnet heterosexual, 24 percent gay or lesbian, 40 percent bisexual, and 24 percent not sure.

The latest book from the foremost expert on how sexuality has been twisted in our day: “Sexual Sabotage: How One Mad Scientist Unleashed a Plague of Corruption and Contagion on America”

The CDC notes that ~1 in every 5 “gay” children, 1 in 7 “bisexual” and 1 in 8 “sexually unsure” children were sexually molested before reaching his/her teen years, versus 1 in 21 heterosexual children. Extensive “establishment” and self-report data repeatedly confirm the etiology of homo/bi/ etc. sexuality as grounded in early sex abuse.

The CDC authors advocate for Gay-Straight Alliances (GSAs) in schools, claiming that GSAs help children “participate meaningfully and feel more connected at school (p. 21).” The CDC authors write that they train “school staff and others who work with sexual minority youths” to help “shape behavioral health messages accordingly.” However, the authors dodge the high rate of sex abuse suffered by mis-oriented children before age 13. And they never advocate that children report adult or other predators to the police, even those that infected the children with sexually transmitted disease(s) – from crabs to AIDS.

The authors boast that CDC “funded the American Psychological Association (APA) Healthy Lesbian, Gay, and Bisexual Students Project” with what they call “science-based workshops for school counselors, nurses, psychologists, and social workers on how to effectively reach sexual minority youths with HIV prevention messages and other health information.” (p. 48). Yet these same authors excise the dozens of sexually transmitted diseases commonly caught prior to or alongside HIV (crabs, herpes, syphilis, gonorrhea, genital warts, scabies, pelvic inflammatory disease, HPV, hepatitis B, etc.). This methodological flaw excises the cost in money and resources due to all fornication, that is, out of wedlock sexual intercourse. In 2006 D A. Pollard argued in “Sex Torts”:

“America has a serious sexual problem. The sexual practices of a small percentage of Americans have created an unprecedented disease rate that is costing the American public about $20 billion per year.” While STD “damage” lawsuits increase, “current sex tort law is mired with anti-heartbalm sentiment.” Our “sexual disease crisis” he says, reflects the “laws failure to do its part to help educate the public and deter irresponsible sexual behavior.”

Pollard wants “strict liability for sexual disease transmission” (as in the pre-sexual revolution). This would “deter sexual disease transmission, and educate the public about the sexual disease epidemic, more effectively than negligence.”

Since entitlement recipients cannot pay, the working “village” must pony up and pay the liability. Again the perpetrator doesn’t pay the price.

Instead of deterring STD transmission, CDC authors trivialize child sex abuse and protect the probable high rate of mis-oriented child predators that caused mis-oriented “minority” youth who forced or “consensually” arranged for bad, dangerous, even fatal, behavior.

When our key government health agency policy is “don’t ask don’t tell,” there is no call to “tell a responsible adult” about “gay” abuse. Critics would claim this reflects a statist fear, lest the police locate the predators of child abusers who are transmitting AIDS and other STDs to vulnerable youth and the wider society.

If you have not read the story of Grace, please do:

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Trauma Bonding: Children Can Be “In Love” With Their Rapist

From: victimsofpsychopaths.wordpress.com

Serendipitously, someone sent me this article.

I am currently working on the end of my healing journey, which means, dealing with the most emotionally painful and emotionally traumatizing event of my early childhood. Part of that, is to finish with the strong emotional ties I had with my father. Some people might think it should be easy for a child, or an adult, to undo a bond from a rapist. No. Not easy. Traumatic bonding is one of the most powerful relationships in families of incest…

“Traumatic bonding is “strong emotional ties that develop between two persons where one person intermittently harasses, beats, threatens, abuses, or intimidates the other.” (Dutton & Painter, 1981). Several conditions have been identified that must be present for a traumatic bond to occur.

–(1). There must be an imbalance of power, with one person more in control of key aspects of the relationship, such as setting themselves up as the “authority” through such things as controlling the finances, or making most of the relationship decisions, or using threats and intimidations, so the relationship has become lopsided.

–(2). The abusive behavior is sporadic in nature. It is characterized by intermittent reinforcement, which means there is the alternating of highly intense positives (such as intense kindness or affection) and the negatives of the abusive behavior.

–(3). The victim engages in denial of the abuse for emotional self- protection. In severe abuse (this can be psychological or physical), one form of psychological protection strategy is dissociation, where the victim experiences the abuse as if it is not happening to them, but as if they are outside their body watching the scene unfold (like watching a movie). Dissociative states allow the victim to compartmentalize the abusive aspects of the relationship in order to focus on the positive aspects.

The use of denial and distancing oneself from the abuse are forms of what is called cognitive dissonance. In abusive relationships this means that what is happening to the victim is so horrible, so far removed from their thoughts and expectations of the world, that it is “dissonant” or “out of tune” or “at odds” with their pre-existing expectations and reality. Since the victim feels powerless to change the situation, they rely on emotional strategies to try to make it less dissonant, to try to somehow make it fit. To cope with the contradicting behaviors of the abuser, and to survive the abuse, the person literally has to change how they perceive reality.

Studies also show a person is more loyal and committed to a person or situation that is difficult, uncomfortable, or even humiliating, and the more the victim has invested in the relationship, the more they need to justify their position. Cognitive dissonance is a powerful “self-preservation” mechanism which can completely distort and override the truth, with the victim developing a tolerance for the abuse and “normalizing” the abusers behavior, despite evidence to the contrary.

The victim masks that the abuse is happening, may not have admitted it to anyone, not even themselves.”

…and in my experience, even after remembering the incest, the traumatic bonding itself can take years to recognize and years to heal.

“Trauma bonding makes it easier for a victim to survive within the relationship, but it severely undermines the victims self-structures, undermining their ability to accurately evaluate danger, and impairs their ability to perceive of alternatives to the situation.

Once a trauma bond is established it becomes extremely difficult for the victim to break free of the relationship. The way humans respond to trauma is thought to have a biological basis and reactions to trauma was first described a century ago, with the term “railroad spine” being used. Another term used has been “shell shocked.”

…This is especially true in father/daughter or brother/sister incest cases.

“Victims overwhelmed with terror suffer from an overload of their system, and to be able to function they must distort reality. They often shut down emotionally, and sometimes later describe themselves as having felt “robotic”, intellectually knowing what happened, but feeling frozen or numb and unable to take action. A victim must feel safe and out of “survival mode” before they will be able to make cognitive changes.

Many victims feel the compulsion to tell and retell the events of the trauma in an attempt to come to terms with what happened to them and to try to integrate it, reaching out to others for contact, safety, and stability. Other victims react in an opposite manner, withdrawing into a shell of self-imposed isolation. The trauma bond can persist even after the victim leaves the relationship, with it sometimes taking months, or even years, for them to completely break the bond.”

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Anti-Depressants Attacking the Empathy Gene, Creating Zombies and People Who Harm Others

“You bring about a break, however small between the individual and either his external reality or his humanity, by which I mean his tendency to react “humanly” to external circumstance. Either you have reduced his awareness of what is going on around him or you have reduced his capacity to care about it in the ways that human beings have historically cared as far back as myths and legends take us.” ~Schwartz, Drug Therapy May Harm Society 1.

General Effects On All Emotions

“Most participants described a general reduction in the intensity of all the emotions that they experienced, so that all their emotions felt flattened or evened out, and their emotional responses to all events were toned down in some way. Very common descriptions of this phenomenon included feelings of emotions being ‘dulled’, ‘numbed’, ‘ flattened’ or completely ‘blocked’, as well as descriptions of feeling ‘blank’ and ‘ flat’. A few participants described a more extreme phenomenon, in which they did not experience any emotions at all. Others felt that they often experienced their emotions as thoughts rather than as feelings, as if their emotional experience had become more ‘ cognitive’ or ‘intellectual’. Some participants were able rationally to recognize situations in which they should feel a certain way, and yet the actual emotional response was not there or was altered in some way. Alternatively, some participants could still respond to emotional situations in an appropriate way, but without what they felt was real feeling.”

My notes (in blue): I would rather experience severe emotional pain than become like a cold robot.

“Many participants described improved control over their emotions, so that what they considered to be excessive emotional reactions were reduced and more appropriate. This meant that they could more readily deal with or let go of certain emotions, and some participants described improved control over fear. Some participants described a difficulty in understanding or being in tune with what they were feeling, as if their own emotions were less clear to them. A few participants described that at times those emotions that were present seemed ‘unreal’, ‘fake’ or ‘ artificial’.”

People who suppress emotions with drugs will one day find themselves attacking their own self with suicide, or others, with unchecked emotions and rage that can severely harm another person. Psychotropic drugs merely suppress the pain, it can never, ever heal it.

Reduction of Positive Emotions

“Almost all participants described a reduction in their positive emotions, which they attributed to their SSRI antidepressant. This reduction was manifest as both reduced intensity and reduced frequency of these emotions. Participants reported reduction in a wide range of positive emotions, including happiness, enjoyment, excitement, anticipation, passion, love, affection and enthusiasm.

Most participants reported that the intensity of positive emotions was ‘ dampened down’ or ‘toned down’, such that participants did not experience the same emotional ‘ lift’ or ‘high’. Many participants reported that they experienced positive emotions less often, and a few participants described that they were almost absent. Many participants described reduced enjoyment of, for example, social situations, hobbies or interests, beauty and nature, and music and other emotional media. Some participants reported that excitement and anticipation were reduced. They had, for example, lost the rush of excitement as an event approached, or no longer looked forward to things in the same way. Some participants felt reduced love or affection towards others and, in particular, reduced attraction towards their partner or reduced feelings of love or pride towards their family. Some participants described reduced passion, zest and enthusiasm for life and its components.”

Reduction of Negative Emotions

All participants experienced a reduction of intensity or frequency of negative emotions, which they attributed to their SSRI antidepressant. Most participants considered that at some stage the reduction in negative emotions was beneficial to them, bringing relief from distressing negative emotions, and allowing normal daily life to resume. Some participants reported that negative emotions had been removed almost entirely. The negative emotions commonly described as reduced included sadness; emotional pain or distress; anger, irritability or aggression; and anxiety, worry or fear. Other negative emotions such as fear and surprise, embarrassment, guilt and shame, and disappointment were also mentioned to a degree. Although a reduction in these negative emotions was usually at some stage a benefit or relief, for many participants it had became an unwanted side-effect, impairing their quality of life. Participants described the need to be able to feel negative emotions when appropriate, such as grief or concern. Some were unable to respond with negative emotions, such as being unable to cry when this would have been appropriate or respond appropriately to bad news.

Emotional Detachment

Most participants described feeling emotionally detached or disconnected, and attributed this to their SSRI antidepressant. Some participants described being detached from their surroundings, and described feelings of being ‘ in limbo’, of ‘unreality’ or ‘ disconnection’ and of feeling as though they were a ‘ spectator’ rather than a participant. Some participants described functioning like a ‘zombie’ or ‘ robot’, with reduced or absent emotional responses. Some participants described feeling detached from their own emotions and instincts. Most participants described that this emotional detachment extended to a detachment from other people. Specifically, they felt reduced sympathy and empathy, and felt detached during social interactions. In particular, many participants described an emotional detachment from their friends and family, including their partner or children. Participants’ attitudes towards emotional detachment from other people were mixed. Although this was often seen as an undesirable side-effect of antidepressants, it was also sometimes seen as beneficial, by allowing disengagement from others’ problems, others’ negative emotions and highly charged situations that would otherwise be upsetting.

Just Not Caring

Almost all participants described not caring about things that used to matter to them and attributed this change to their SSRI antidepressant. They cared less about themselves, about other people and about the consequences of their actions. Not caring could have both helpful and unhelpful consequences, reducing the sense of pressure and stress that some participants felt in their daily lives, yet increasing the likelihood that important tasks were neglected.

What is beneficial about not caring? These drugs essentially enhance the ego-self…“It’s more important that I feel good than it is for me to care about the well-being and safety of others”

“Many participants described a general feeling of indifference to things in life that used to matter to them. Many participants described feeling apathetic and unmotivated, despite their illness having improved and attributed this apathy to their antidepressant. Some participants felt that their sensible, safety-conscious, side had diminished and they just did not care as much about the consequences to themselves of their behavior. As a result, they might behave in a less careful, considered way. A few participants went further, mentioning thoughts of self-harm or suicide that they related, at least in part, to feelings of emotional detachment and emotional numbness. One participant had started to self-harm in an effort to feel emotion. Many participants reported not caring as much about others, such as during social interaction, by being less sensitive or courteous towards other people. In addition, many described reduced concern for others’ feelings, and reduced concern about other peoples’ opinions of them. Some participants described being less concerned or even unable to care about responsibilities in their everyday lives, such as at home, in their finances or at work, and might include, for example, a lack of urgency or need to complete tasks.

Changed Personality

Some participants felt their personality had changed in some way, or been lost, leaving them ‘like a shell’. In some ways, they were not the person that they used to be. Participants reported that specific aspects of their personality, and, in particular, emotional aspects, had been changed or lost, such that they were a different person. These changes were attributed by participants to their SSRI antidepressant. Some participants believed that at times their antidepressant had made them behave quite out of character.

One participant believed that the medication had changed their personality permanently, having a lasting effect beyond finishing their medication.

Unhelpful effects. Some participants were concerned that blunting of their emotions and, thereby, of their day-to-day concerns, might mask or hide problems. Concerns were expressed that this might prevent them resolving their own emotional issues, prevent them engaging with other problems or issues requiring their attention, and ‘cover up’ who they really were.

Of course it does!

‘Just not caring’ had an unhelpful effect on everyday responsibilities, resulting in financial problems, and problems at work or college. Emotional detachment from family and reduced emotional responsiveness had an unhelpful impact on family life, and on perceived quality of parenting. Reduced inspiration, imagination, motivation and passion for and enjoyment of creative activities had adversely affected some participants’ creativity.

In some participants, emotional side-effects had led to reduced sociability. Emotional flattening, emotional detachment from other people, and reduced concern for other people’s needs and feelings had unhelpful effects on relationships within families, with a significant other and at work. A few participants suggested that the emotional detachment and reduced anxiety arising from taking antidepressants was of concern when trying to make important life decisions, especially those with an emotional component.”

Concluding notes:

We are living in a volatile, frightening, dangerous world, full of selfishness. We are also living in a world where many people are searching for God, the meaning of life, personal peace, security, and joy. But they are given nothing but bad information from the powers that control the media, films, TV shows, news, education, and given dangerous information from medical and psychological authority figures. There is no real spirituality being taught, and no true healing being offered. Thus, many people are choosing drugs, alcohol, and anti-depressants to check out of reality because they cannot find inner peace.

Couple this with the countless people walking around with unhealed trauma, abuse, abandonment, and betrayal from childhood. Eventually, hundreds of thousands of these people will go on anti-depressants, lose empathy and love for their children and then harm them physically, mentally, or sexually.

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