Did anyone see nineteen year-old “Logan” on Dr. Phil, who was raped for years as a child by her father and his friends?
I could barely watch the program.
I do not think “Logan” is her real name, but starting at age three, Logan was used as a sex toy for several of her father’s friends, including women. Logan’s father also raped his daughter, and in order to support his drug habit, he had friends over to the house for sex parties with his child.
Logan, now nineteen, sat stoically and without emotion, as she told her story to Dr. Phil.
Logan spoke about her father’s rapes; “Usually, I would be tied down to the bed, or the floor or the wall because I would flail, and I would scream. He would tie me with duct tape or rope. Usually, I would just be left there, tied up for a couple of hours. When he would walk out of the room, he would cover me up with a blanket. My dad would tell me that this is how princesses become queens. I had never felt so much pain as a 3- or 4-year-old girl.”
“My dad would give me heroin. He thought it was so funny to watch this little girl walk around, fall all over herself. When I was 4 years old, my dad shot me up with heroin, and I overdosed. Drugs were a lot of what helped keep me quiet.”
Logan said her perpetrators would cut the faces of people out of magazines, cut holes in their mouths and tape the picture to her face for the rapes. She also said there was usually at least one female in the room while she was being raped and tortured. Logan said the women did nothing except sit there and laugh.
At one point, Logan was sold to her father’s drug dealer for a month-and-a-half of rapes and abuse.
When Logan’s father (above) gave her to his drug dealer, the man kept her naked, forced her to clean his house while naked, made Logan give his guests oral sex, and she was raped by them.
“Even women who were dating these men,” she says. “I don’t understand how somebody never came into that house and said, ‘What are you doing? A 5-year-old little girl — how could you victimize her in the way that you have?’”
The rapes stopped when Logan turned eleven. She did not see her father any more, and Logan did not tell a soul about what she endured for eight long years. Five years after her last rape, Logan received a phone call. Her father was dying of cancer.
On his deathbed, her father confessed to her. Logan said she told him she forgave him, but of course, says she really didn’t.
At her father’s funeral, Logan saw many of the people who raped and sexually abused her. When Dr. Phil asked her if she wanted to see them punished, Logan said no.
I am fairly certain that Logan was threatened with death or otherwise mentally programmed by her abusers to not want to see them pay for what they did. There is no other explanation for her response, except that she feels guilt for the rapes. Dissociation from the torture and abuse is of course taking place in her mind, but Logan has not dissociated to the point of isolation and not being able to tell her story, so dissociation is probably not why she says she does not want to see them punished.
It does not matter if a child is raped at age three, and continually tortured and sexually abused for years…they will undoubtedly feel guilt anyway! But Logan has to move beyond her guilt for the sake of other victims.
I was furious with Dr. Phil for not asking Logan if she would like to protect other children. He should have asked her to seek justice so these monsters don’t harm anyone else. I am 100% certain they have already sexually abused and raped many other kids!
Logan is nineteen years-old, she is not a little girl anymore. Dr. Phil should have asked her to help other children by naming her perpetrators.
Victims need to have the truth spoken to them, even if it might be a hard truth. Dr. Phil blew it when he did not confront Logan with the fact that her silence is allowing little children to be put in serious danger. I hope and pray that he spoke with her off camera about this.
Logan was duct taped to a recliner chair with her legs spread open. Her rapists used to spin her around in the chair like a bottle. When the chair stopped spinning, Logan was raped or molested by the person whom her legs pointed to!
These people are satanists and monsters. They need to be taken out of society.
Logan, unable to have children because of the rapes, says, “I remember the first time like it was yesterday,” she says. “I still have the nightmares. Those mens’ faces don’t ever leave my mind … I don’t know what to do with these faces that I see every day and these memories that I have. I have nightmares almost every night. And regularly, it’s my father more than the other men.”
Logan can help stop those nightmares by putting her rapists in prison.
Logan says, “I usually have nightmares about four or five times a week. My nightmares are vivid memories. So many faces. I see it happening again, and again and again. It seriously sometimes feels like I’m there. My entire life, I’ve used drugs to numb the pain, pretend like it didn’t happen. I’m scared that I’m going to keep going on this path that I’m on right now and wind up dead.”
Logan is abusing drugs to get her through the pain and trauma, but she needs to put down those drugs and pick up a telephone to tell authorities the identities of those child rapists and all the women who stood by and did nothing while she was brutalized and humiliated.
She cannot pretend that it did not happen by ignoring the fact that her perpetrators are out there –free to rape and torture children. If Logan can speak on Dr. Phil to millions of viewers, she can name her perpetrators and face them in court. If she does, I guarantee she will help minimize the nightmares, and rid herself of many of her other mental health problems.
Silence is complicity and says to the perpetrators: “I approve of what you did.” Logan has a moral duty to go beyond herself and tell authorities who those people were.
I am not judging Logan in anyway. I do not know what she endured mentally to stop her from speaking up. But Logan must speak up for other innocent children.