While finishing up the very last chapter of my book, I have just realized for the first time that my entire childhood and teenage years consisted of being told verbally, subliminally, or with abuse…that I was worthless, stupid, unworthy of love, a liar, and a useless piece of garbage.
I am amazed that I not only survived, but that I have turned out to be who I am.
This journey of mine has proven to me the strength of the human spirit.
I cannot fathom how the little child inside me managed to become who she is today.
It is just before dawn that it is the darkest, so stay strong. Take deep breaths, and push forward knowing that you do so for your inner child. Do not abandon her/him. Do not give up like your abusers want you to, and do not abandon your inner child like your abusers did.
Stay strong for that one person or child you might help today, or for an animal, or for Mother Earth. Even if you do not feel like taking one step in front of the other today, do it for others, the environment, and for nature and animals. You will be rewarded by God.
I have climbed an inner mountain, so can you.
Bear and Me, Spring of 2012
~Alethea
EVIL SITS AT THE DINNER TABLE 
Dear Alethea,
What a beautiful post, and photo, of a beautiful person! The little child inside of you was guided by Divine Grace, which is so powerful. As others mentioned, I also anticipate your book…thank you for all you do for us, your readers, and all those who are touched by your words through links that are shared.
Grace,
Graceful as always in your comments. You are a beautiful person to me. I am so inspired by how much strength and love you have, and how much hard work you have done on yourself in so little time.
You totally rock. Can’t wait to read your book. I have been very inspired by your posts and look forward to paying it forward one small step at a time.
Thank you so much Clara. I appreciate your enthusiasm!
Alethea,
Your intelligence, integrity, and honesty speak volumes about you. I can’t wait to read your book.
God is happy.
You have my support and know that you are creating a new family and that there are many of us out here that, now because of you and others, have a voice to speak to say “What you did is not OK”…. and I will talk about it now….:)))))))))))) Keep the great post coming. xoxo Melissa Lee
Thank you Melissa (((((hugs)))))
Humanity is my family now, so that includes all of you.
Peace.
How and when can we buy your book??? I absolutely love when I get an email that you have a new post. You are always so brutally honest and inspiring. Thank you so much for all you do:)
Kellbabs, thank you from the depths of my heart for your desire to read my book.
Up until the last chapter, the manuscript virtually wrote itself. I think this is because I fell into such a dark place at that time. But it is darkest just before dawn and sunrise, so I am hoping that as I proceed with the last chapter, and continue on the last leg of my healing, the last chapter will fall into place. I firmly believe in things flowing naturally and without force, so I want it to feel RIGHT.
I will be posting on my Blog as soon as I sign the contract with the publisher, and will post the publishing progress. The publisher says it takes 90-120 days after I sign, to have the book in my hand.
My book will be more brutally honest and inspiring than my Blog. I held back on posting a lot of pain and experiences on my Blog because they are in my book.
Thank you š
I would have posted a photo of myself this spring, but it has been so cold here and we have received lots of snow. It has been snowing all morning here, and only 22 degrees. I can’t get out for photos lately, but I will!