For many years, I have kept a list of actors that I feel were probably sexually abused as young children, or raped as teens, and are repressing the memories or just not speaking publicly about it.
After reading that Pamela Anderson (Pamela Sue Anderson) star of Baywatch, former Playboy model, and the former wife of musician Tommy Lee, was sexually abused from ages 6-10 by her female, lesbian babysitter… I was not surprised at all. Pamela was one of the actresses I assumed may have a history of child sexual abuse.
My belief was based on her liver disease (liver is the seat of anger) and her over-sexualized persona.
Many people judge a person about their sexual appearance, or if they have posed for Playboy…but no one knows why a person is hyper-sexual, like Pamela was for many years. She was not only molested by a woman for years as a young child, she was raped as a teenager by a man, and several boys.
“At the risk of over exposing myself…again, possibly being inappropriate…again. I thought I might share with you events that, in surviving, drove me to this point right now. I did not have an easy childhood — Despite loving parents, I was molested from age 6-10 by my female babysitter.”
Pamela was raped by a friend’s 25 year-old brother when she was twelve, and gang-raped in the 9th grade.
Last year, Pamela told an audience at the Cannes Film Festival, that because of the lesbian babysitter’s abuse, being raped was “her first heterosexual experience.”
It wasn’t until she discovered her love of animals that she found a sense of purpose: “My loyalty remained with the animal kingdom. I vowed to protect them and only them. I prayed to the whales with my feet in the ocean. My only real friends — till I had children.”
Anderson, now an animal rights activist, says her parents thought the woman who molested her was “the greatest babysitter in the world.”
Pamela even went through terrible distress as a child, when she felt she was responsible for her molester’s death:
“I remember the last straw was when she told me there was no Santa Claus…So I ran after her full speed with a candy cane pen and tried to stab her in the heart. And it didn’t work. So all night long I wished her dead, I wished her dead, I wished her dead — and within 48 hours she died in a car crash.”
Pamela says her parents tried to keep her safe. But she says her father was an alcoholic, and her mother worked two jobs, so she never told them what the babysitter was doing to her:
“My mom was always crying, dad didn’t always come home, leaving us in tremendous pain and worry. I couldn’t bear to give her more disruptive information so I couldn’t break her heart any more than it was breaking.”
The former Baywatch star says she has, at times, wanted to vanish from the earth.
“Needless to say, I had a hard time trusting humans,” Anderson said. “I just wanted off this earth.”
Pamela’s connection to nature helped save her life, and she is now a strong advocate for animal rights.
Pamela’s story is NOTHING UNUSUAL. Please don’t assume a woman is safe to leave with your children. Use caution with ANYONE you intend to leave with your children. 95% of children never tell anyone they are being sexually abused –like Pamela, they wait until they are an adult, and when it is a female abuser, a woman can take it to her grave.