“Abuse? What Abuse?… Please Pass the Potatoes”

Repression and dissociation of trauma is included in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV).

I don’t particularly like the word “disorder” because I believe that memory repression is an ingenious, rational, and methodical way for a child’s mind to handle severe trauma, sexual abuse, death threats, and extreme emotional betrayal.

Repressed traumatic memory is normally diagnosed as “dissociative amnesia” or sometimes called “psychogenic amnesia.” There are several diagnostic features for dissociative amnesia. The main component is one’s inability to remember vital, personal information, and this lack of memory is too substantial to be explained by normal forgetting. The memory loss can last months, or years –often, decades.

Most professionals use two different terms to explain how a victim ends up with amnesia for a sexually abusive experience in childhood. “Repression” was defined by Freud as a method of defense in which a victim of severe abuse or trauma forces the overwhelming, extraordinary, and horrifying events out of the conscious mind and into the unconscious.

Pierre Janet preferred “dissociation” as the explanation for blocking the distressing information. Janet believed the trauma was split off from the conscious mind rather than pushed away. Experts continue to interchange the two terms and some disagree about which mechanism is utilized by victims, although, dissociation seems to be the preferred explanation among mental health professionals. It is possible that some people mentally “split” from the trauma and others repress it. Maybe some victims do both.

There are many significant factors about traumatic amnesia that have not been widely discussed. Some of the common causes of the amnesia can be any or all of the following:

  • The trauma or abuse began at an early age.
  • The trauma or abuse continued for an extended period of time, usually years.
  • The abuse involved rape and intercourse or other forms of violent acts.
  • There were threats to the victim or their loved ones.
  • The victim’s need for self-survival was a major part of the abuse (The abuser was a trusted care-giver or parent, and or, there was a lack of protection by the other primary care-giver or parent).
  • The child had an inability to express what was happening.
  • The experiences were so personally overwhelming and horrific, that retaining the memory of them, would cause extreme psychosis, suicide, or “craziness” (insanity, madness).

Each of these very significant reasons can directly contribute to DA, but denial, shame, and guilt can indirectly contribute to the amnesia.

Let’s examine the theories for why dissociative amnesia takes place:

Nature’s System of Self-Survival:

Human beings have an intrinsic fight or flight system. When an authority figure, a primary care-giver, or a powerful stranger is sexually abusing a child, then the fight mode is normally ineffective. The child is physically powerless, so when fleeing is impossible, the child must escape mentally.

Physical Threats and Heinous Acts:

Threats of death and harm to others or pets are probably more linked to dissociative amnesia than the child’s age and some research supports this. Heinous acts -that are so shocking or frightening to the victim-  would also contribute to the victim’s psychological need to mentally remove themselves from the abuse.

One repression case involved a woman who had been forced to eat her own vomit and drink her own urine. She was also forced to eat her feces after it had been smeared on her.

To the adult survivor of child sexual abuse, that included death threats, remembering the abuse can be equated with severe punishment or death.

Truddi Chase on Oprah

Truddi Chase on Oprah

Truddi Chase, author of When Rabbit Howls, was threatened with death if she told, and her mother reinforced the threats by telling her that she would kill her if she misbehaved. Truddi went through the same experience as I did when she began to write her own book. She felt she was “breaking the rules” by writing her story. She was an adult and the threat was gone, but to her subconscious mind, the danger was very real. For Truddi Chase, and me, telling our story was equated with death. (note: my book manuscript went on hold several years ago when I had to deal with major life changes and new memories of sexual abuse that I have not disclosed on my Blog).

People wonder how a person can block out repeated and brutal experiences, but it makes more sense to repress shocking trauma than to have a clear recollection of it. Not only did I do exactly what my father told me to do when he used a knife to threaten me with death, but I obeyed his threats so well that I pushed the abuse and the threats, right out of consciousness. We can’t disclose what we don’t remember. Self-survival is the strongest component in human nature. By blocking the abuse out, I assured myself of keeping the secret and thus, staying alive. If my mother would not protect me, I had to do it myself.

Frequency of the Abuse:

Repeated events allow a pattern of defense to be generated. The victim might automatically and instinctually teach themselves a sort of self-hypnosis. They may also begin the process of denial, numbing or ‘leaving their body’ during the abuse.

In the book, Betrayal Trauma, by Jennifer Freyd, she explains how continuous trauma and betrayal by a primary care-giver can create the need to develop amnesia for survival. When a child is being molested, raped, or threatened by the person who is providing them with shelter, food, medical care, and emotional attachment, then the child cannot react in a normal way to the harm being done to them. Even though the abuse is degrading, painful, and brings terrible trauma and shame, the child is forced to try and survive in the home with the perpetrator. Repression is sometimes the only way the child can endure the cruelty, and at the same time, physically and emotionally survive. This is why dissociative amnesia is more likely to be found in cases of incest.

When memory repression is found in circumstances where the abuser was not a family member, but someone the child loved or trusted (like a priest or family friend), then the amnesia may be more connected to shame, guilt, denial, and threats of death. Although, in some cases, being sexually abused by a priest can equal the depth of betrayal by a parent.

Age the Abuse Took Place:

Some experts still believe that a significant factor in repression is the age of the victim at the time of the first sexual assault (many mental health experts have minimized this reason). The theory is that if a child is pre-verbal when he or she is first abused, then the violation would not be understood in a context that allows the victim to form any thoughts about it. If the child is too young, then the abuse would not be symbolized and it would go unspoken. Therefore, it would remain unorganized in the mind of the child, and subsequently, not comprehended. The young child would have no understanding, or judgment, of what is happening to them.

Even if the abuse continues after the initial trauma, and the child is abused well into their teens, every subsequent act of sexual abuse will still be blocked out by the older child, or teenager. This is why Marilyn Van Derbur blocked out her father’s rapes –even when he was still raping her at age eighteen.

Denial and Grief:

In families like mine, the only way to survive was for everyone to blind themselves to what was happening. If everyone is acting as if nothing is wrong, if the child is incapable of understanding what is going on, and if the perpetrator acts normal when he is not actively being abusive, then the child would have every reason to question their own reality. The family then reinforces the victim’s denial and the child is never allowed to outwardly suffer emotionally or to grieve.

In a 1992 case of repressed memories, the victim was raped at around the age of ten by her father. The victim was told by her father that disclosing the abuse would break up the family and that he would kill her. She was also given the responsibility to initiate the sexual encounters, which she did, but only to stop him from molesting her younger sister.

When the child attempted to tell her mother about the “white substance” on her genitals, her mother did not help the child, she instead gave the child a book about menstruation. This girl was forced to behave as if nothing was wrong. She was not given the opportunity to properly express her pain because her mother would not hear her. She was also forced to take care of herself, and her mother was subtly telling her that she needed to protect herself from getting pregnant with her abuser. When a child is forced to suffer in silence, unable to grieve, and forced to protect themselves, the child can easily begin to repress the abuse. But this method only lasts so long. The day eventually comes when the memories, psychological dysfunction, or an illness surfaces.  If childhood trauma and emotional grief is not spoken about, then the body will do the talking.

Maternal Abandonment:

Professional research confirms that mothers who look the other way to the sexual abuse, or who directly allow the abuse to happen -blaming the child, or allowing the perpetrator to have easy access to the child- is a contributing factor in traumatic memory impairment. It makes perfect sense that a child’s self-protective system would immediately need to shift into high gear when their mother does not rescue them from a predator, and instead, embraces the victimizer. Sometimes the mother also participates in the sexual acts, and this magnifies the need of the child to mentally block out the events. As Lenore Terr M.D. says, “Denial stops memory before it gets much of a start.”

Lack of Validation for the Victim:

Skeptics ask why so many victims of the Holocaust remember details about their traumatic experience. Many war crime victims do not remember much of their experience, and others remember nothing at all.

Nevertheless, the tormentors in the war were not trusted family members and there was no secrecy about the crimes within the prison camps. It was common knowledge among everyone in the camps that suffering and imprisonment was taking place and the victims had each other to validate what happened each day.

Prisoners of war did not go to school, to the office, or to social parties during their time in the camps and then later return to being victims of war crimes after the normal activities had ended. They did not take vacations with their perpetrators, or go to church or a synagogue with them.

In addition, people rarely tell victims of war they were never imprisoned, that it was their imagination, or blame them for being prisoners of war. More importantly, friends and relatives of war crime victims do not coerce them into thinking that their captors were “good” hardworking people who loved them.

Prisoners of war were eventually liberated at some point by people who confirmed the atrocities and who provided them with some kind of help. In concentration camps, there was also a great deal of corroborating evidence. Victims of war often have tattoos with their camp number or there are military documents about being liberated.

People who endure prison camps don’t normally have the same level of interpersonal shame and guilt that a victim of child sexual abuse does. Even if guilt and shame had been a factor during the camp imprisonment, it was not a secret guilt or a secret shame. Incest and child sexual abuse involves deep humiliation. It is a dirty secret that was perpetrated by a loved one, or trusted care-giver.

Children of war were not being raped by a parent and they did not engage in family meals, celebrations, or loving moments with their victimizers. They did not have to deal with the confusion that a child of incest endures when they try to find reality in the midst of two different worlds. One world is full of pain, rage, fear, betrayal, guilt, and isolation. The other is one of birthday celebrations, Merry Christmas dinners, movies, popcorn, and trips to Disneyland.

As noted in Behind the Playground Walls, a child being abused within the family makes accommodations in a “world where few things are as they seem and the power of the abusers is pervasive and magical.”

This conformity creates defenses that are seen as crucial by many children. They block the bad, only remembering the good, or at least what is humanly bearable. For many children, it is more useful to repress the trauma than to retain the memory of it.

It is not usually advantageous for a child, or an adult, to preserve the knowledge that someone they loved sexually violated, abandoned, or threatened them. Repression and dissociation allows the child to remain attached to the parent or other loved one who is assaulting them, and simultaneously providing the child with food, shelter, and the necessities to live.

In Memories of Sexual Betrayal, an incest victim revealed she had been forced to watch her father rape and sodomize her sister. She then described that after a night of sexual abuse, life was back to normal the next day. Her mother was preparing the family breakfast and her father was reading the paper. She said, “Everything was just as it had been the night before when I went to bed.”

Jennifer Freyd points out that repressed memories of incest is more likely to be found in families that are somewhat functional.

I see Marilyn’s face saying, ‘I am going to keep his secret and pretend that nothing is happening…It’s even a secret from myself.’

I see Marilyn’s face saying, ‘I am keeping his secret and pretending that nothing is happening…It’s even a secret from myself.’

Marilyn Van Derbur and her sister Gwen, came from a prestigious and outwardly functional family. Even though both sisters grew up in the same home with the same sexually abusive father, and the same mother who ignored the signs of abuse… the dynamics of the two sisters were very different. Consequently, the sisters displayed two very different coping defenses.

Marilyn, who felt no anger for her father while growing up, was the one who repressed the abuse entirely. Gwen on the other hand, felt hatred for her father and wanted to kill him. The remarkable difference is that Gwen has always remembered being sexually abused by the father.

In 1992, Ross Cheit began having dreams and memories of being molested almost nightly by a camp counselor for the San Francisco Boy’s Chorus named William Farmer. Ross had spent the summer at the camp as a child. Cheit’s memories began to return after two separate incidents. The first was a phone call from his sister. She was calling to tell Ross that she was sending her son to a San Francisco Boys chorus. The other trigger was a newspaper article about Father James Porter who molested and raped hundreds of young boys, decades earlier.

After Ross Cheit remembered that his perpetrator was his camp counselor, he searched for more victims and discovered that other perpetrators also worked at the camp. Cheit subsequently discovered an enormous cover-up at the boy’s camp. He found at least a dozen other victims who had been molested by Farmer or another camp employee.

Madi Bacon, founder and director of the Boy’s Chorus, openly admitted to Cheit that Bill Farmer had done questionable things with some of the boys at the camp, but Madi Bacon blinded herself to it.

Madi Bacon told the boys many times they were lucky to have Bill Farmer, and this is how she helped create a distorted reality for the boys at the camp. She generated the image of a respectable perpetrator, while denying his dark side, and she pretended the camp was a joyous and normal place for the boys.

Madi Bacon said she kept things at the camp a secret because she wanted the camp to have “a happy ending.”

Madi Bacon is the epitome of those who shove child sexual abuse under the rug. She is just like all the mothers who choose not to see incest going on because they want the outside world to see a “normal-looking, happy” family. In this case it had been the reputation of the camp which was preserved over the children’s well-being.

After an emotional and difficult phone call to Bill Farmer, Ross Cheit waited for a promised apology by mail, which never came. Farmer refused to admit much responsibility at all and acted as if the abuse was no a big deal.

He probably learned that from Madi Bacon.

A contributing factor to Ross Cheit’s repression was most likely due to the fact that each morning, after Ross was molested by Farmer, life was back to normal. Everyone engaged in his or her daily routine, including Bill Farmer and Ross Cheit.

If an adult continues to tell a child wonderful things about the person who is abusing them, and creates the fantasy of an all-American home, then the child will cling to that false image, instead of relying on their own experiences. When a child has no sense of self-worth and cannot even trust their own experiences, and when the majority of the other family members do not acknowledge what is happening… the child will say to themselves, “Maybe I’m wrong, maybe it never happened.”

Blog One

When a child, who has just been raped by his or her father, comes to the dinner table to find that everything is normal again, and no one says a word about the molestation or rapes, and the child hears “please pass the potatoes” or “would you like some more milk?” The child is forced to choose his or her reality.

Does the child choose the reality of the incest and rapes, or is it the pleasantries and falseness of the dinner table?

The victim chooses the dinner table in order to survive.

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Sources:
Behind the Playground Walls: Sexual Abuse in Preschools, Jill Waterman Ph.D, Robert J. Kelly Ph.D, Mary Kay Oliveri MSW, Jane Mc Cord, Ph.D, 1993, The Guilford Press page 242
Stacey Lannert, Free Stacey Lannert Website, Stacey’s Writings
Dissociation, Repression, and Reality Testing in the Countertransference, Jody Messler Davies, Memories of Sexual Betrayal: Truth, Fantasy, Repression, and Dissociation, Jason Aronson Inc., Edited by Richard Gartner, Ph.D, pages 60-61
Betrayal Trauma: The Logic of Forgetting Child Abuse, Jennifer J. Freyd, Harvard University Press, 1996, page 45, 76, 77, 78
Unchained Memories: True Stories of Traumatic Memories, Lost and Found, Lenore Terr, M.D. Basic Books, 1994, page 146
Bearing Witness A man’s Recovery of His Sexual Abuse as a Child Mike Stanton The Sunday Journal Massachusetts edition of The Providence Sunday Journal Volume CXI, No. 19 A-1 May 7 1995
Bearing Witness A man’s Recovery of His Sexual Abuse as a Child Mike Stanton The Providence Journal Morning Edition of the Providence Journal Bulletin South County Monday May 8 1995 A-8 and A-9
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Recovered Memories, Linda Stoler, Kat Quina, University of Rhode Island, Anne P. DePrince, Jennifer Freyd, University of Oregon, 2001)
Posttraumatic stress associated with delayed recall of sexual abuse: A general population study. Special Issue: Research on traumatic memory. Elliott, Diana M.; Briere, John U California-Los Angeles Medical Ctr, Child Abuse Crisis Ctr, Harbor Campus, Torrance, US Journal of Traumatic Stress, 1995 Oct Vol 8(4) 629-647
The Recovered Memory Project” Ross Cheit, Memorandum and Order, pp. 1-2; Hewczuk v. Sambor, C.A. 91-6562 February 18 1993
Lenore Terr’s work described and quoted in Betrayal Trauma, pages 138-139, Freyd, 1996, Harvard University Press
Betrayal Trauma, page 139, Freyd, 1996, Harvard University Press
In a personal letter to me, used by permission via personal correspondence.
Unchained Memories: True Stories of Traumatic Memories, Lost and Found, Lenore Terr, M.D. Basic Books, 1994, page 129
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19 Responses to “Abuse? What Abuse?… Please Pass the Potatoes”

  1. Rainydaiz says:

    Thank you so much for this article. I have completely blocked everything out and it’s a very slow process in beginning to know it happened. (It’s been a year since my first flashback, and 3 months since I realised it had been my dad that abused me. ) Your article was so helpful to me. I am so frustrated at not remembering more though. Mainly because I would like to prove it to myself as I still swing between believing it and not. And I want to be able to talk to my sister about it without doubting myself. Especially because I am worried for the safety of my nephew and niece. How did you eventually remember? Was it a slow process like me? I feel as if I am in limbo at the moment and it’s driving me mad. I know the memories are meant to come when we are able to cope with them. And I know pushing for them will make them hide even more. But I’d like to know there is some hope for me to remember as so little has happened between my first thinking something might have happened (last June) and now. Just two emotional flashbacks. And full blown PTSD for 6 weeks when I realised it was my dad. I had to be off work. Then I’ve shut it all down again. It’s just such a frustrating process. Thanks again. Sorry for the long post.

    • Alethea says:

      Dear Rainey,

      Don’t be frustrated at not remembering more, because the subconscious mind (the soul) will not allow you to remember anything more until you are able to handle it consciously.

      When I first began to remember my father sexually abused and raped me as a child, I went back and forth for a few weeks. This is NORMAL to do, and the going back and forth is actually a part of the remembering process.

      If I were you, I would be 100% sure and strong before you speak with your sister about it, because the majority of the time, siblings will deny -and even lash out- at the incest being revealed. Have you read my series on revealing the secret? You should read the series before you speak with her.

      Sometimes the sibling will accept the information, or say it happened to them too, or will validate your memories, but they will minimize or brush it all of as ‘no big deal.’ This response can actually wound you more than total denial.

      Are your nephew and niece ever left alone with your father? if so, you might have to consider talking to your sister before you are fully ready, but you could offer the conversation in a round-about-way, or with just questioning her first. Don’t outright accuse, but feel it out, see how she reacts to a benign question about incest.

      It took me two years before I remembered what my father did, and it came out naturally, without trauma to myself, and it came out after a dream, and after I had a memory that hinted at incest, but the memory was very benign. My therapist told me the memory meant nothing, and this was brilliant on her part, becasue when I did remember full blown incest, I did not question whether my therapist had put the idea in my mind. This is why it is important to have a professional help you while you are going through this.

      below is the link to the article about revealing to family members:

      https://ordinaryevil.wordpress.com/voices-from-the-bedroom-revealing-the-deadly-secret/

      • Rainydaiz says:

        Thank you Alethea. I appreciate you taking the time to reply and your thoughtful comments. I think I have read that article in the past but I shall have another look at it. I understand what you’re saying. I just need to find a way to protect myself. For example my sister and husband have just announced that for the first year they don’t want to do Christmas with the rest of us. That just leaves me and my husband and my mum and dad. This is stressing me out and I keep feeling that it isn’t fair that I am continually being punished for things that aren’t my fault. I guess I think that if they knew, I wouldn’t have to see them. Anyway, thanks so much again. I know what you mean about your therapist. I am so grateful to mine for never leading me down that path. I was so lucky to find her – I had been in therapy for 5 years before it started to come out. She had been recommended to me by someone, but I hadn’t known them that she specialises in trauma and dissociation. I feel very lucky to have found her. She has been so professional. Phew!
        Thanks again Alethea.

        • Alethea says:

          Rainey, one of the most valuable and liberating things I have established through self-awareness and my therapy, is that life is very short, and that people-pleasing and being a lie to myself is a waste of time and hurts my soul. If I were you, I would find a way to Gracefully bow out of Christmas with your parents if you dread it that much. Can you see them for just an hour, exchange gits, and then be on your way? I would not lie to them, but be gracefully honest with them. Maybe just tell them that this year you want to be alone with nature, or to just chill out without all the hustle bustle and driving.

          If you can’t bring yourself to do that, then put on a mental shield of armor and be with them as a detective -in a sense- ask benign questions, make mental notes of your feelings around your parents, and then use your experiences and notes in your first therapy session after Christmas.

  2. shanakd9 says:

    Do you know if your therapist accepts insurance? I have blue cross blue shield or whatever it is!

    • Alethea says:

      Sorry to say, no. But her price is very reasonable compared to other psycho-analysts and worth ten times that.

      If you feel ready, you can contact her assistant. Email me, if and when, you want me to give you her info.

  3. C. says:

    Hi. I found your blog a couple of years ago but only now found the courage to read regularly, as the material you discuss is so triggering. It takes a bit more to be able to comment on too, so I wouldn’t worry too much about not receiving enough comments if I were you. Maybe there are other people like me who read you but are non ready to write.
    However, I want to suggest to you to find a way to make your blog profitable somehow; it would please me to know that you get something back for the time you spend writing and researching these topics. I know nothing of how these things work, but I think a little DONATE button might be the easiest solution. I wouldn’t recommend a percentage on your therapist’s new patients though because that would make things look fishy. Up to you. As a random reader I certainly give you my blesssing on that. C.

    • Alethea says:

      Dear “C.” Thank you so much for the comment. I know a lot of people read silently. I honor that, and will try to remember it. Thank you.

      I don’t think I would feel comfortable with a donate button unless it went towards a foundation of some kind, which is something I might start one day, when I find the right cause to fight for. No,

      I would never ask for a percentage, or promote my therapist for financial gain, on my Blog (or anywhere). My writings about her are purely because she helped save my life. It is my gift to others when I do it.

      Thank you so much for saying something. It means a lot to me.

      ~All my best,
      Alethea

      I gain a tremendous amount of Blessings from God for running this Blog, and benefit in my soul in simply giving something to others.

  4. shanakd9 says:

    We have had so much trauma and pain in our family lately that I haven’t been responding much. ON top of I can never remember my passwords, I save them and then I go back and it says the password is incorrect, and I don’t have the energy or strength to fight with it.
    I don’t have a therapist right now and can’t afford one, the last one I had helped a lot but then ended up being the biggest betrayer of them all. Don’t have the time or energy to go into it now. I really appreciate your blog and it is very helpful. I am glad that you are doing it, and hopefully in time I will be more active.

    • Alethea says:

      Hi Shana. It’s good to hear from you. Thank you for responding in your hard times. I know you, so if you want to be Facebook friends, send me an email at sanjuanangel7@yahoo.com and I will send you the link to my FB Page. I have really cut down on FB “friends” and keeping it for people who share common consciousness, and or, histories of trauma and who want to keep in touch.

  5. KevinF says:

    Another excellent article, Alethea. You make so many good points. It would be great if articles like that were compulsory reading for people like educators and health practitioners in every country.

    • Alethea says:

      Kevin, I SO MUCH appreciate you. What I do on this Blog offers NO financial reward whatsoever. I get no money from anything that I write, or for the advertisements that I guess Word Press has on my Blog (I don’t see them, but I think they show up sometimes right?)

      Time is so valuable to me, and I only run this Blog in order to HELP other people who suffer. I don’t get any financial compensation from my therapist when I try to refer her through my articles. I do this all out of a drive to HELP. I so much appreciate it when you and Susa, and LN, and others take the time to comment because sometimes, my efforts seem to be a waste of time.

      One day soon, I hope to make a video recording for my Blog and for YouTube that will inspire/educate/help many more people. I hope educators and mental health experts, and medical doctors will one day hear what I have to say and apply it to their work.

      • susashushan says:

        Alethea, in my opinion, your efforts will never be a waste of time! You seem to be able to hit the nail on the head every single time. I know that you have distanced your blog from facebook, but if you ever feel that it would be okay to link to one of your blog entries on my facebook page, please let me know. I truly honor your boundaries! I just think that my facebook friends would be very appreciative to read your excellent insight re: trauma. I look forward to seeing your video! I also have many art YouTube videos which are all trauma related, and have been extremely cathartic for me to produce, and I hope for others to view.

        • Alethea says:

          Susa, THANK YOU! Please share my Blog, articles…anything and everything on your FB Page. I actually got back onto Facebook a couple of months ago, because I did some self-reflection and realized that leaving FB was a subconscious way of sabotaging my ability to voice my opinion and share my nature photos –which are two things that bring me joy. Please email me at sanjuanangel7@yahoo.com, and I will send you my FB Page link if you want to be FB friends. But I won’t take it personally if you don’t want to.

      • KevinF says:

        Thanks, Alethea. Videos sound good. Go for it!
        But don’t forget that the most important thing for you and for all of us who read these pages is to pursue and work through our own healing. You’re well read and I’m sure you’ve heard of Dr Rupert Sheldrake’s theory of ‘Morphic Fields’. It’s similar to the ‘hundredth monkey’ theory and it asserts that once something is created or placed in the Quantum Field in which we all ‘live’, then that thing becomes available to all of points of consciousness in the field. When we create healing for ourselves, then it becomes available to everybody else who seeks it.
        I only wish I could access the Quantum Field and all its Morphic fields as accurately and easily as I can access the Internet! Perhaps this can happen in the future.

        • Alethea says:

          Thanks Kevin. I am very aware of the Quantum Fields of science and how everything is connected and what we do affects everyone and everything. It’s one of the reasons I keep this Blog going, and why healing is so vital for all of us.

          As I told Shana and Susa, I re-opened a Facebook account after I realized that by shutting down my last one, I was self-sabatoging myself from communication -which is vital for me. Send me an email if you want to be FB friends; I’ll send you a link to my FB Page.

          Anyone else who wants to be on FB with me, send me an email. But if I don’t know you, then I will have to find out a little about you, and will have to check out your FB Page before deciding. No offense, just self-protection.

          Peace and Love,
          Alethea

  6. susashushan says:

    Thanks so much for writing this about these topics. Especially the parts about dissociation, dissociative amnesia, incest, and mothers who are enablers. Dissociation has been a way that I have survived. On another note, Truddi’s daughter has just published her new book, “The Creature of Habit, A Journey” which also contains her mother’s art.

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